I just saw pictures of Jason’s bother’s wedding, and in the pictures Jason is so relaxed, happy and smiling. And gorgeous, as usual.
At the moment my heart goes: “Omg you beautiful person, you are so adorable and perfect! Let me love you!”
My brain goes: “Omg I should not be even looking at these. I am a fan, not a friend of any of the people in the pictures. Why did I see these?”
I feel like I’ve betrayed myself, Jason and the whole fandom.